The real reason for this second post so soon is to update everyone on what has changed. In the "cancer industry" you have to be really flexible! I am learning that lesson quick. Just when you think you know what to expect... you don't. That being said, I have some news.. I will not be getting surgery on April 6th! My Doctor called me this morning to let me know.
Man he used a lot of medical terms. I just kept saying "yeah" like I knew what he was talking about. Basically it was a different kind of Sarcoma tumor than he thought? It is a PNEP Sarcoma. He said that this (really rare) type of sarcoma responds very well to... chemo. Ouch. That escalated quickly! I mean that really got out of hand fast. The several month long treatment is supposed to reduce the size of that soccer ball I have inside of me. Which will make the surgery a lot less complicated. That is good! But the whole chemo thing isn't the best.
There is the update. Now that I have your attention I can also say THANK YOU. I spent a lot of yesterday with teary eyes. I could not believe the love and support that everyone was sending my way. Texts, posts, prayers, thoughts, etc. It just means so much to me. I am so grateful for you all. Ethan Prete brought a scripture to my attention at the beginning of all this that really sums up how I feel:
"Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands" (D&C 121:9)
Thank you again. You will never know how much all of it means to me.
Well! Chemotherapy here we come! Yay! I figure if I make it sound like a party, maybe it will be a little better? I think I am going to wear party hats during the treatment or something. Maybe get some confetti? Oh guess what? I was actually excited to have this surgery on Monday. For a really dumb reason... Hahaha! The day before surgery you have to be on a strict liquid diet, and drink lots of ex-lax stuff. You know what Sunday is? Easter!!! I was excited to be able to say "I have had diarrheas all easters". If you don't get that... go watch Nacho Libre. :)
To wrap it up... I am scared. I am worried because I don't really know what to expect. I have cried several times today for different reasons. I just got done crying in my kitchen with a great family friend who came to show her love. Wow. The really awesome thing about this is that I have a lot of peace. I have had some good long talks with God about all of this, and He has helped me out a lot. Man He really does love His children! God and I are gonna make a bomb-awesome team throughout all of this. I don't think trials and hard times mean that He isn't there, but I think we have adversity so we can see how much He wants to be in our life.
We all have trials but it is my belief that we "can-cer vive" anything that life tries to throw at us. Just remember that life is whatever we make it. I choose to make it good, cancer and all.