The real reason for this second post so soon is to update everyone on what has changed. In the "cancer industry" you have to be really flexible! I am learning that lesson quick. Just when you think you know what to expect... you don't. That being said, I have some news.. I will not be getting surgery on April 6th! My Doctor called me this morning to let me know.
Man he used a lot of medical terms. I just kept saying "yeah" like I knew what he was talking about. Basically it was a different kind of Sarcoma tumor than he thought? It is a PNEP Sarcoma. He said that this (really rare) type of sarcoma responds very well to... chemo. Ouch. That escalated quickly! I mean that really got out of hand fast. The several month long treatment is supposed to reduce the size of that soccer ball I have inside of me. Which will make the surgery a lot less complicated. That is good! But the whole chemo thing isn't the best.
There is the update. Now that I have your attention I can also say THANK YOU. I spent a lot of yesterday with teary eyes. I could not believe the love and support that everyone was sending my way. Texts, posts, prayers, thoughts, etc. It just means so much to me. I am so grateful for you all. Ethan Prete brought a scripture to my attention at the beginning of all this that really sums up how I feel:
"Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands" (D&C 121:9)
Thank you again. You will never know how much all of it means to me.
Well! Chemotherapy here we come! Yay! I figure if I make it sound like a party, maybe it will be a little better? I think I am going to wear party hats during the treatment or something. Maybe get some confetti? Oh guess what? I was actually excited to have this surgery on Monday. For a really dumb reason... Hahaha! The day before surgery you have to be on a strict liquid diet, and drink lots of ex-lax stuff. You know what Sunday is? Easter!!! I was excited to be able to say "I have had diarrheas all easters". If you don't get that... go watch Nacho Libre. :)
To wrap it up... I am scared. I am worried because I don't really know what to expect. I have cried several times today for different reasons. I just got done crying in my kitchen with a great family friend who came to show her love. Wow. The really awesome thing about this is that I have a lot of peace. I have had some good long talks with God about all of this, and He has helped me out a lot. Man He really does love His children! God and I are gonna make a bomb-awesome team throughout all of this. I don't think trials and hard times mean that He isn't there, but I think we have adversity so we can see how much He wants to be in our life.
We all have trials but it is my belief that we "can-cer vive" anything that life tries to throw at us. Just remember that life is whatever we make it. I choose to make it good, cancer and all.
Sean you have a good attitude and I pray that it goes well for you. Over the last 4 1/2 years as I have watched my husband battle cancer I have realized that attitude really does help. No one quite understands what you are going through. Not even someone that has fought their own cancer battle, because you all deal with things differently. However there is one who does understand and who will always be there for you and that is our Savior. Lean on Him and He will bring you great peace. Good luck to you Sean
ReplyDeleteSean we will keep you in our prayers. Good luck on your journey. In case you don't remember me, I am Dallin Carlson's mom. When I was twelve I was diagnosed with bone cancer in my clavicle. I was healed through the power of the Priesthood. I will pray for your healing.
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